High School ended and my friends went off to college.  It was strange, because they had been talking about college our entire senior year.  I never even seemed to think too much about what I was going to do.  However; I did take the SAT and received a score high enough to attend a local community college.  At the time, I do not feel that I was an alcoholic or addict yet.  I was really still in the early stages.  I went to college and finished my freshman year as scheduled.  I was really proud of myself for this accomplishment.  However; I started hanging out with a new friend “Rick”, who I knew from High School.  Rick was a good friend but also liked to drink and do drugs.  Mainly, his drug of choice was cocaine.  Rick was able to get us a small quantity of cocaine to take on a trip with us to Cancun Mexico.  By this time, I smoked a little bit of Marijuana off and on, but was not completely hooked.  Again, I do not feel that I was an addict yet.
I have to admit that cocaine was a really interesting drug.  To me, I found it highly addictive (I could feel the itch for more after doing it) but not worth the money.  I should also mention that I was constantly going to the gym to try to improve my physical appear for women.  Being a skinny kid, I was not interested in anything that caused me to lose weight because again I wanted to be “Buff”.  With all of that being said, I will still never forget the first time I really got high off of cocaine.  I was in Cancun Mexico and did a few lines before going down to the bar.  At the bar, I sat down and drank 5 or 6 draft beers and walked away sober.  That’s when I realized why it was called the party drug.  You could get completely blitzed and do a few lines and were immediately sober again.  But, I would never become addicted to cocaine as you will later see because of my desire not to lose weight.
Time went by and I started working at pizza delivery business.  I started when I was 21 years old and was still a student at my local college.  So, delivering pizzas was a part time job for me.  Around this time I started smoking pot regularly.  I would say by the time I was 22, that I smoked it every night.  By the time I was 23 I was stoned all of the time.  If I wasn’t stoned then I wanted to be.  My first finance broke off our relationship at age 23.  This was a blessing for me to say the least.  However; I could not stop smoking pot no matter what happened in my life.  Around this time I went to the doctor for some reason and he prescribed me an anti-depressant.  He felt that I was depressed.  Indeed he was correct and it made a huge difference in the way I felt about myself.  Even though I was smoking pot all of the time, I felt so much better once I was given something to help with my depression.
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